A poem by S.S poetry: A new day / Dealing with grief

Dealing with forgotten grief

 

The last three months have stirred up old emotions. Baggage that I have been carrying around, unaware. 

We all experience loss; it is very much part of the human experience. With recent deaths gracing our family again, I was immediately transported back in time to the saddest moments of my life. 

 

We can be filled to the brim with denial sometimes and believe our own lies. Saying that we are okay, saying that we are over it, when in truth the pain is buried deep within. 

 

I have asked over and over: How do I let it go? I don't think I can, but I do need to accept it. 

Acceptance is what I will have to teach myself. Whether in a poem, a mantra, or a prayer, however the lesson, acceptance is my answer. 

 

Many of us have struggled with acceptance; some things are just harder than others to truly grasp and understand. So we push it aside in hopes that it goes away, but it never does. Without embracing the fact that we cannot control everything in life, we will just continue piling onto the heap of forgotten things we carry on our backs. 

 

I have never truly dealt with my grief, whether it be death or other forms of loss. I must be honest and say I have just piled onto my heap of forgotten things. Creating a hoard of pain and blockages stopping me from being the best version of myself. These last three months have been heavy with the truth and pregnant with tears, tears I thought I'd cried already. 

When I look at myself, I always think about how funny it is that I always seem to start over. Back to the drawing board half way through the process.  Maybe it's a good thing... 

A new day

 

In the embrace of a new sunrise

Finding strength in the break of day

Change dawns its light

Casting wide the unknown

Stirring the mind to unfold a new truth

Letting go of what was

Looking forward to what will be

- S.S